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Nightmares

More nightmares last night, not sure what they were but needless to say my hero is coffee today. I might have a case close to me soon so that would be interesting. Lately I have been having a tough time, not in life but emotionally, I don’t really know why but I just started my new job and it’s so amazing so far.  My bosses are refreshingly professional which is a change from some of my past bosses. all in all little victories are happening. I am excited for the new rise against album, and I’ve done my best not to watch too much News lately, just depressing. As far as my nightmares go, well I can’t tell you much more than they are sad and vivid. I feel like I got no sleep last night.

 

Before I go I have to say this, I saw Alien last week, it was alright but I feel like it missed the mark a little bit. Definitely worth a watch but doesn’t really compare to the Ripley film, the one that started it, which I bought on Blu-ray at wallyworld so there’s a win. Well i must feed my belly. I included a recent picture i took. Enjoy and let me know if you want more photography posts.2017 fun (5 of 11)

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RAAAAAMBLE

So first things first, today i went to see Alien: Covenant and I had a blast, I thought it was a good time. It was nice to get out of my house for a bit and enjoy some kit kat popcorn combo. Also on a semi positive note, I got my first day at my new job done without incident.

Because the universe needs balance I’ve actually been in kind of a funk lately, I can’t really explain it, between the nightmares and other things that just seem to annoy the living shit out of me. I am trying to write a fictional novel to settle my grievances and get it out of my head but it’s happening slowly. I don’t know maybe it’s jealously over my friends seemingly moving on and careers and this and that seems like no one really talks to me these days unless under extreme stress but i can only take so much one way friendships, i feel like im always the one reaching out. I’m getting anxious that my screenplays will ever just be that, paperbacks on amazon that no one orders, I am happy they got published but i want them on the screen. And it seems that all my film “friends” keep looking the other way, just very frustrating some days. I guess after years of hearing i wasn’t good enough, or it wouldn’t happen I figured a break would come so I could say well it did happen and I was good enough. I really really have to move out of my parents house, that’s part of the emotional issues I have, most days I am strong like a bull but some days it just really gets to me, this state has some good memories but also a host of nightmarish memories that I’d like to get away from for a while. I guess that’s all for now, lol talking to myself i guess since no one reads this.

 

Note to self, go write some of that novel.

First day of work/paranormal updates

Well I have been pretty sick the last few days but I am feeling a little better and today is my first day of work with my new job. I will be a tourist attraction photographer, I am excited.

Lately I’ve been racked with reoccurring nightmares, they seem to pop up every now and again. There has been some paranormal activity in my house as well, little things like hearing my name called, footsteps. I have also been waking up in the middle of the night for no reason feeling like I’m not alone. A few months ago a miniature chair as part of a mini kitchen would fly off the display for no reason. The first few times I would just hear it and find it displaced but one night i was lucky enough to actually see it. It surprised me more than scared me, it wasn’t the first object in the house to move by itself. A few years ago whilst brushing my teeth to go to bed the toothpaste lifted up and launched into the sink, that one made me jump a bit. I am a paranormal researcher so I’ve done tests in the house, taken pictures. When my aunt was in town we did a spirit box session where among others, my brother came through who had recently passed so we attribute some of the activity to him, but I’ve gotten female voices as well so the mystery continues. It is time for more coffee and some breakfast, I will keep posting about my paranormal experiences, I’ve been investigating going on 12 years and it’s been one crazy ride.

Top o’ the morning to ya

Hello all, this is my second blog, the first one hurt a little at first but then it felt kind of nice haha. Right now I am drinking coffee and preparing to dive back into my novel, one of them anyway. I have published works available on amazon called Bullied, 80mg, and Fox Hollows. They are screenplays that I got published through some competitions so for the first part of this blog I will give you the log lines and you can check these fine page turners out if you so desire.

1.) Bullied- A heartbreaking tale of school violence.

2.) 80mg: the story of an Addict- A college film maker starts out with a simple project and discovers that we all have vices, we all have demons.

3.) Fox Hollows- A classic you shouldn’t be here B movie taking place at fox hollow farm in Indiana home of Herbert Baumeister, where over 6,000 human bones were discovered.

 

Phew, alright then, thank you for sticking with me through the self promotion part of this blog.

Today I would like to tell you about something that disturbed me the other day, I have an instagram, mostly to follow my friends and my favorite celebs, I rarely post on it. The other day I got a new follower, it was a page that looked like a depressed teenager, now I am not sure if this page was a fake but the fact that he’s had 12 posts like that and no one has said boo is disturbing. I pasted the national suicide hotline number but I feel like we ignore these kids. I recently finished 13 reasons why, and then read some of the reviews saying it glorified suicide which i find to be a bit of a stretch, what it did was shove that ugliness that is high school for some kids, more and more these days into the face of the American T.V. watcher.  Maybe it hit me harder because I drew similarities to my own high school which was a rough bumpy road, a story for another blog. In the near future I will be making a page called #youmatter, a place people can come for support through their dark ride of depression and bad days, a place to find maybe inspiring quotes, words of encouragement, and references to those organazations to help if they are really in danger. So many people are silent because they feel their voice doesn’t matter, that they can’t reach out but lets show them they can. I’ve been in that dark hole myself, I’ve considered it even somewhat attempted it but I’m here for a reason, to help people even if just for a minute, always ask, always reach out. Well coffee is almost empty so i must go remedy that but I hope this blog reaches out to people and I am a good listener to anyone out there, and I’ll leave with this, The darkest, loudest storms always have a sunrise just beyond it.

A rainy day in May

Hello, to who ever happens to read this. Today it is extremely rainy, a excellent day for writing and drinking coffee, I have had quite the week with a bachelor party for my best friend and also a mothers day trip to a nice, yet creepy tiny town in Vermont yesterday. Several hundred miles and some money has been spent but it has been great. Recently I had dealt with mixed feelings about my best friends wedding and party, I guess part of me had trouble accepting that we were getting older and being grown ups lol. I had so much fun hanging out with my best friends. A little back story for how we met, it was middle school and I was a loser, apparently so was he, we had to choose locker buddies and low and behold no one chose us so we were paired together, who knew that a simple pairing would have turned into a nearly 15 year friendship that is still ongoing, to now where i am going to be giving a best man speech, no pressure right. I guess part of me was tripping down memory lane, kind of wishing I could go back, well maybe not all the way back because high school was a shit storm of events, eventually partially inspiring my first screenplay which i am proud to say is published on amazon. I guess the rain is making me ramble my thoughts but my heads been cluttered lately as i am trying to write my first novels, I am hoping blogging will help so I leave you with this new friends of mine, if you find yourself bored and in need of a mediocre read, I’ll be here for ya haha.

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